Sometimes I’m afraid to write my thoughts down on paper
In my mind, writing things down means that it happened. That it was real. And when things don’t work out, it hurts to look back on what was real. when you write things down, you take your thoughts and experiences and put them onto something tangible. Something that you can either keep or throw away. And that position isn’t something I want to put myself in. I guess what I’m saying is that sometimes it feels safer to leave memories inside of my own mind. But sometimes, like right now, an undeniable urge comes over you, something bigger and greater than you or anyone else could ever understand. And you just need to write. Because deep down, you know for better or worse, you want to remember a moment. A time in your life you feel so lucky to have ever been given the chance to experience. And when you’re in that moment, everything makes sense.
